I did something that didn’t work out and I feel was a bit of a mistake. I admit it. I mean, I’m only human after all and mistakes do happen. I took a job that I thought would be incredible, held so many prospects and would be something I’d be really proud of.
It’s not turned out that way. Not at all.
I left a job that I loved with some of the best people I’ve had the pleasure of working with. Scrap that, some of the best people I’ve ever met. I was happy, so happy. I loved getting up for work every morning. I worked in a team of lads that were like the big brothers I never had. I had lunch every day with the girls who drink as much as Prosecco on nights out as I like to so that worked. I met one of my closest buddies there. I was left to my own devices, they trusted me to get results and gave me a budget I thought I’d only ever dream of. It really was a dream come true.
But one day I got a phone call about a job at an emerging company that wanted me on board. There were promises of managing my own team, shaping the future of SEO within the company and being the first outreach team member. The pay wasn’t bad either; I couldn’t say no. I signed a contract and left that job I loved so much with a very heavy heart.
Skip to six months down the line, it may not seem like a long time, but I’m unhappy and when you’re unhappy it seems like an eternity.
I didn’t want to sit in an ‘overspill’ office away from everyone for a good few months where I’d go days without seeing other members of staff, but I did. I didn’t want to sit on the end of someone else’s desk when I was moved to the main office as there wasn’t space for me, but I did. I didn’t want to sit for hours upon hours writing full SEO Outreach strategies to not be able to go ahead and work on them, but I did. I feel so disappointed at how creative I want to be but I can’t be.
I don’t want to get up and go to work every day in somewhere I feel I’m not being creative or utilised to my full potential. I don’t want to sit at my desk and do the jobs I’ve been given when it’s not what I signed up for. I don’t want to wear thermal socks in my Dr.Martens in the office because it’s so cold. I don’t want to, I just can’t do it anymore.
So I’m not going to.
Today is my last day at that job. I’m now about to spend a week with my most favourite human in one of my favourite places. And you know what, I couldn’t be happier.
Do I have a new job lined up? No!
Do I know what I want to do next? Not entirely.
Does that worry me? Not at all.
I’ve got the full support of Mike, the full support of my parents and the full support of those closest to me. That’s all that matters right now; that people believe in me. I’m filled with content ideas, photoshoot inspiration and videos I can’t wait to create, but as much as I love my blog this isn’t me announcing I’m going to be doing it full time; I’m going to freelance, try new things and really focus on what I want. This is me taking a break to find something I really want to do and I can’t wait to fully embrace it.
I'm Squibb Vicious, better known as Haydy!
Happiest with a craft beer in hand, eating til my heart is content or exploring somewhere new.
Here you can read about my adventures!
Haydy – I can relate to this from past experience and I’m so happy for you. A few days away will be perfect and I am sure you’ll find what’s right for you. All the best x
Thank you doll, makes me feel less crazy! xx
Good for you Haydy! A new job comes with inherent risks that all that glitters may or may not be gold. You made the leap, it didn’t work. Bravo for leaping again. Your network sounds incredibly supportive too which is great I look forward to your next adventure
Thank you! You’re so right, sometimes you just gotta take that leap and give it a go! I am super lucky with those around me, I couldn’t/wouldn’t be doing it without them! x
GO HAYDY!! It can be scary jumping out of work especially if you’re not sure what to do next, but you have 100% made the right decision. Your happiness always comes first.
Thank you!! I did feel like I’d had a moment of madness but, like you say, happiness is so important!! xx
ohhh mate, I’m so proud of you making the decision to leave something that doesn’t make you happy.
Thank you doll. You were so right back when I started, typical stubborn me haha!! xx
So incredibly proud of you darling! you’re going to boss it 🙂
Bee xxx
Thank you Bee!! Hopefully, I can have the time to take photos as good as yours now!! xx
That’s my girl. Love dad.
Thank you Dad! I couldn’t do it without having so much support from you and Mum!! Thank you for beliving in me xx
Good luck Haydy! You are still one of my most favourite people I’ve had the pleasure of meeting through blogging. You were an ace addition to your old work place and I knew any event with your name on it was going to be fun.
I’m so glad you had the headspace to be able to break away from something you were not enjoying. I know how hard that can be.
Good luck with whatever adventure follows!
Oh Tinuke, this made me feel all warm and fuzzy inside!! Thank you for coming to all the bits and bobs I ran back in the day and for you support, it means so much xx
Yessssss Haydy! I am all for that quit-then-figure it out mentality. So so proud of you for getting out of a situation that made you unhappy and moving towards better things. xxx
PS. Freelance coffee date soon? 😀
YAYYY 🙂 I am so proud of you for taking the leap too! Happiness has got to come first, right?! I need my head to decloud before I make any big job decisions I think!! I’d love a coffee date 🙂 xx
Good for you! Do what feels right for you! I was in your position – I worked in a job where I was unhappy and fulfilled, so eventually, I started freelancing last year. I didn’t have a backup plan or a client base, so I had to start from scratch, plus freelancing can be financially unstable. However, I have no regrets – I am a lot happier, I can express my creative side, I am my own boss and I’m in a much better place.
Chichi
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P.S. Good luck with freelancing! 🙂
Thank you! It’s such a liberating feeling isn’t it?! I’ve got really lucky and got a few freelance jobs all ready to start next week when I’m back from my holiday so that’s a huge weight off my shoulders!!
Hope it continues to go well for you xx
Best of luck for finding something amazing next. And good on you for not putting up with it. You totally deserve to be happy!! Xx
Thank you lovely! I shall be a lot better at getting back to your emails now!! xx
This post actually came up on my LinkedIn feed! This is a really inspirational post because I feel like there are lots of people who were probably in the same position as you, in fact the start of last year I went to a job that just didn’t work for me! I found a different one and I am so much happier now but I think it’s important to take time to just reflect. Well done dear!!xx
Woo, I’m so glad posting to LinkedIn is working and inspiring people so thank you so much for stopping by and commenting. So glad you managed to escape, it’s so important to put your mental health and happiness first!!
Thank you xx
Any change is scary and I myself quit my full time job on Monday as I am seeking new adventures.
I hope that we both will find what we are seeking but I am sure in time we will and the gamble we made will be the best that we have ever done.
I can totally relate but was pregnant when I realised what the new company was like and they don’t like pregnant women so they made my life hell. I’m now a mummy which is so amazing but have no idea where it leaves my career. Feel quite low about it at the moment but hoping that when I’m able to return to work there’ll be exciting opportunities out there. Good luck with freelancing and taking some time out. .
You will ace whatever you choose to go back into 🙂 Enjoy the time off being a mummy and take each day as it comes xx
Oh Haydy I know entirely how you felt! This was me in my last job and it got to the point where the smallest of things would make me so irritable, and miserable, I’m glad you had the sense to know to walk away though! They clearly didn’t appreciate or understand your worth, but anyone you do work for in the future will! xx
Well done on getting a job at Joe Blogs, I LOVED working there so much!! Thank you doll, means a lot xx
Hey, Iv Recently gone through a few jobs because i am not finding the quality of colleague.
These days everyone seems to have there own agenda, especially in corporate environments. Now i am looking forward to managing my website and working for myself. This is probably what everyone should do. Its the only way to provide a proper future for our children.